Truth

Something is wrong, I tell myself as I continue to participate in the narcissistic relationship that drove me to be completely stupid in my opinion! I was gaslit from the day I could remember! And by the very souls that vowed to protect me. There I stood for the very first time really sober, thinking, I was blind to the whole thing! Now I see it all so fucking clear! I stayed stuck and probably went back many times seeking refuge in a fallen shelter! Give me a reason to not believe that this is describing what psychology says, Stockholm Syndrome!! I have reason to believe some active participant has it and doesn’t know it.

My thoughts run around in my head like crazy. I’m afraid to tell  my story the truth yet feel the urge to put it all out there. Well there I did it out loud. The truth of the matter is, I was very badly hurt as a child and then gaslit that it never happened. I am putting together a book. I need to get my words flowing. So here I am. Pen in had (iPhone) and eager to get it out there. Oh the sheer truth is going to open eyes and hopefully be of assistance. I believe this is going to be my best work next to giving birth to my 3 beautiful kids.